I'm 22. I never ever thought I would say that I was in my 20's. I know I'm young, but this is the age that you always talk about when you are 13 with braces. I don't really know what I thought I would be doing at this age, but I imagined it pure bliss with no worries...hmmm...interesting.
I have learned so much in my 22 years, and I cannot imagine what the rest of my life holds. I had a bit of a breakdown on Monday, which was officially my 22nd birthday. I came home from classes feeling a little special in my own mind, although every single person that saw me that day had no idea I had just officially reached my "20's." I felt a bit lonely I think, due to that fact that most of my dearest friends don't live in Lubbock anymore, and my family is about 500 miles away. I started crying cause I'm sensitive, and realized that there was more to life than just being able to do everything legally. In my 22 years I have learned most of all that family is extremely important and those relationships are worth working at. My mother is probably one of my best friends, and I know people say that's not possible, and she is my mother, but we have a nice line between friend and mother. I guess you could say I was lucky. My dad is a man worthy of praise, and has taken care of me all of my life, and not just monetarily. My brothers are the sweetest things to walk the earth, and they treat me like a princess. Really.
All this to say, I have also learned that not everyone loves me the way they do, and there are people that will disappoint. People are crazy. They really are. I have met some looneys, and I guess I was a bit disappointed with humanity because I grew up rather naive. I thought everyone was good, and everyone loved each other and wanted the best for others. This is just not the case. In the Bible, especially in a lot of the Psalms "evildoers" and the "wicked" are spoken about often. I don't know if I thought they were kidding, but those people do exist, or else they wouldn't be mentioned. I have had a hard time dealing with the fact that man is flawed, and we will experience broken hearts, lonliness, shame, and hurt. We will also experience new trust, redemption, love, deliverance.
I read Psalm 37 today and it really spoke to me.
David writes to not fret because of evildoers, but Trust in the Lord, Commit your way to the Lord, Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him for He will deliver you and give you the desires of your heart.
