Weary. Lately I've been feeling this way a lot. Some days I don't know why, some days I know exactly why. There is this song Michael Buble sings, it's called Try a little Tenderness, and it describes exactly how I feel. "...she may be weary, women do get weary wearing the same shabby dress and when she's weary try a little tenderness...she may be waiting, just anticipating things she may never possess and while she's without them, try a little tenderness..." I feel like as soon as I started school everything came all at once. I was immediately overwhelmed as I walked on campus, and I've really never felt that way before. It's partly due to the fact that pretty much all of my close friends are graduated, and I'm so busy here that I feel like I don't have time for the people that are here with me. It's a constant battle. In a sense, I feel lukewarm in every aspect of my life. I feel I can't ever be satsified with myself as an artist, as a friend, as a cook :), really everything. It's tiresome always thinking about bettering yourself if you get to caught up in it. What's wrong with just being totally ok with how I am right now? I'm a perfectionist, and it will be the death of me if I don't get it under control.
ahhh...anyways on a better note. I went to Colorado Springs this past weekend with my family to see Mark at the Air Force Academy. It was so wonderful. I cried all the way back to Lubbock it was that wonderful. To see my brother as a grown man with such a great sense of who he is, and how loyal he is to this country makes me feel more proud than I have ever felt in my entire life. I can't imagine when I have my own kids.
